Samsara Online

Was the only thing that came out of his mouth as he looked at the beauty standing outside the door of his house, looking at him with a smile that could charm any living being.

"It’s been a while... Though not too long compared to the time we were separated in the past by destiny. Hehe..." Shen Xinya smiled with a small blush on her face that was not known whether it was from the cold or the situation.

Just standing there in the middle of the night with the small lights illuminating the path made her look like an immortal fairy of the heavens. She was wearing a pure snow-white coat with black buttons standing out in stark contrast. At the same time, a pink scarf gently hugged her swan-like neck, but her little nose was slightly red probably from the cold. Her right hand held the handle of a black suitcase as she rested it delicately next to her thin, long legs.

Xie Feng’s eyes brightened slightly at the sight of her like this. He admitted that the only woman who could compare to Shen Xinya in terms of beauty was Mu Wuying; even Xie Yao and Gu Qianxue were only slightly below her... He involuntarily turned his gaze towards the small suitcase she was holding but did not ask anything temporarily. Instead, he stepped forward and took it as he quickly invited her in.

"Come in, come in. We can talk inside."

Shen Xinya looked him straight into his eyes for a few seconds and stayed silent. Her beautiful eyes had a strange glint in them. She smiled softly and said practically in a whisper, "Really kind."

"What?" Xie Feng asked uncomprehendingly. He was still quite surprised by the strange nocturnal visit, but he also had some questions to ask her. In fact, all the bad mood he had felt a moment ago had vanished as if it had never been there in the first place.

"... It’s nothing..." She shook her head and took a step forward to enter the house. Her body shivered slightly from the abrupt change in temperature and she couldn’t help but let out a small sigh of satisfaction as her skin was caressed by the warmth inside.

"Come, let’s talk." Xie Feng said as he walked further inside, heading towards the living room.

Shen Xinya followed him with slow steps as she watched his back.

When the duo reached the living room, Xie Yao looked at Shen Xinya slightly surprised. On the other hand, Gu Qianxue immediately detected a woman’s footsteps and a smile rose on her face as she said, "Really what a pleasant surprise... Receiving a visit from my favorite singer is a nice treat."

Shen Xinya was noticeably surprised and looked at Xie Feng as if she was asking him how such a thing was possible. Unfortunately for her, Xie Feng shook his head and forced a smile... Until now, even he didn’t know how it was possible for Gu Qianxue to know so many things even though she couldn’t see.

"Sorry for disturbing you so late..." Shen Xinya smiled apologetically.

"Don’t worry about it. We were watching some TV after dinner anyway." Xie Yao smiled sweetly and replied. She seemed to think of something and said, "Oh, by the way... Did you have dinner? Dinner is still hot..."

"Don’t worry, I had dinner before I came." Shen Xinya shook her head gently as she gave Xie Yao a look of thanks.

Xie Yao nodded and said nothing more. She gave a quick glance at the suitcase Xie Feng was holding and took Gu Qianxue’s hand as she headed upstairs saying that they were going to take a shower and then go to sleep. However, both Xie Feng and Shen Xinya knew that the two girls wanted to leave them alone for a while so they could chat.

Xie Feng motioned for her to sit next to him, which she silently agreed to.

"No questions, eh... She really is a very kind girl." Shen Xinya broke the silence.

Xie Feng chuckled lightly and nodded as he said, "She is. Just as I sacrifice a lot for her, she also sacrifices a lot of things for me... Including her pride as a woman."

"Including her pride as a woman, huh..." Shen Xinya whispered and a complex smile appeared on her face. "That’s really hard to do..."

Xie Feng was slightly stunned before a bitter smile rose silently. How could he not understand the meaning behind Shen Xinya’s words? However, he didn’t want to fight with her, so he quickly digressed a bit and asked, "By the way, where were you this past week? I tried to call you but your cell phone was off and Yin Yue didn’t leave me her cell phone number."

After her final concert, Shen Xinya had simply disappeared from the radar. It was as if the earth had swallowed her up. If it weren’t for the fact that Xie Feng had left several wind elementals beside her to protect her, he might have gone crazy looking at her. But with those wind elementals, as long as a skill user at the level of the patriarchs of the five great families did not appear, the defensive barrier could protect her for a whole week without falling; it was precisely due to this and because he could sense that those wind elementals had not been destroyed that Xie Feng could rest assured.

Not only Shen Xinya; Xie Yao, Gu Qianxue, Mu Wuying, and even Yin Yue were also being silently protected by him.

"I disappeared during the previous week for two reasons." Shen Xinya replied as she watched the trees sway gently through the window. "The first reason I disappeared is because I needed to set everything up for my retirement. After all, it’s not as simple as just saying ’Goodbye’ and it’s all done... I took the opportunity to visit my family in Hong Kong and chat with my father and mother."

Seeing that she went silent, Xie Feng couldn’t help but get a little anxious and, while maintaining a casual tone, asked, "Oh? And what’s the second reason?"

Shen Xinya retracted her gaze from the outside and looked him straight into his eyes as she said in a deep voice, "The other reason is you. I needed some time to clear my own thoughts and make an important decision."

Xie Feng involuntarily became a bit nervous when he heard her. No matter what, it was true that she had been his first love when he was still young. Even before he met Xie Yao and long before he met Mu Wuying, Shen Xinya had been the first woman who had won an important place in his heart. Even though he had moved on with his life after the years had passed, that did not mean that he had forgotten her; on the contrary, every time he played the piano or saw one the image of that girl he had met when he was still young always remained fresh in his memory.

Seeing him fall silent and his gaze slightly quivering, Shen Xinya couldn’t help but ask, "If I asked you to leave the rest of the girls for me, would you be willing to do so?"

Xie Feng couldn’t help but smile bitterly when he heard her ask that. He stood up and walked towards the huge window.

The Golden Emperor villa complex was built on a small artificial mountain, so from his position, he could see several city lights illuminating in the distance.

As his gaze was lost in the nothingness, he sighed and slowly spoke: "This is not about whether I am willing to do something like this or not... They entrusted me with their soul, their heart, their body, their everything... If I, as a man, do not respond with even greater intensity, then what qualifications do I have to call myself a man? This might sound fickle to you, but I really love them all. Including you. You don’t ask me how this can be possible because, to be honest, even I can’t figure it out. I just know that each of you seems to have a magnet that attracts my soul strongly... In fact, if Yaoyao, Qianxue, Wuying, or you were to be touched by another man, with my current power, I would most likely commit a madness that I don’t even want to imagine.

"Not only do I love them all, not only does my soul feel warm when I am together with them as well as when I am together with you... This is also a matter of honor."

Shen Xinya’s eyes never left Xie Feng’s silhouette. Even when he stood up and walked to the big window her gaze followed his back steadily.

Hearing Xie Feng’s words, her eyes had a complicated glint in them that was difficult to describe with mere words.

"If you had said if you were willing to abandon them for me, I would have looked down on you." She stood up and walked next to him.

However, although her words came as a surprise, Xie Feng could not muster up the courage to look her in the eye.

No matter what, the fact that he had failed was true. No matter how many nice words he said to try to smooth things over, he had broken his promise. This was an undeniable fact... Therefore, he, who possessed the power to end millions of lives in a heartbeat, did not have the courage to look at the woman next to him.

"Although it was a bit hard and in fact it still is.... I want to sing only for you..."