Love You More Than I Can

Sheng Youting now managed a cold smile and acted cruel, “I was slinging mud at you? Lan was like losing everything when her mom was gone. What if she found that she had a twin sister who was sent away by Wen Ruyu since young and the sister was found by you, but you had killed her instead of sending her back to her side? You had even taken advantage of her sister’s death to cover the truth that she was alive. The dead one shared the same blood with her!”

Meng Shaoqian lowered his head and pulled his hair with force. It never occurred to him that Sheng Youting should have the ability to investigate those things in detail. He was unwilling to hear more.

Sheng Youting exhaled, “Lan’s sister could have given birth to a baby safely, if it were not for your selfishness to take advantage of her death. She had baby in her belly. It was two lives! Wouldn’t you be haunted by nightmares?”

Meng Shaoqian covered his head with hands and couldn’t help shaking his head, “Stop! Stop!”

Sheng Youting continued, “Meng Shaoqian, if you were not found by the police, I wouldn’t utter a single word for Lan’s sake. However, it’s my greatest concession.”

“If Lan knew you had set so many perfect traps for her and made her lose her sister and live such a miserable life, how would you expect her to think of you? Wouldn’t she hate you with all her soul? Isn’t it good to remain status quo? She lives with me in peace together with Qibao, but she would always bear in her heart your goodness, not knowing that your hands were stained with her sister’s blood. Isn’t it good enough?”

“Would you be so kind-hearted and let her remember my goodness” Meng Shaoqian scorned. The hatred in his eyes grew. He didn’t want to give up Yu Lan. She had become the apple of his eye for long after all these years. If it were not for his strong will to gain the apple of his eye, he wouldn’t have done so many things wrong.

Sheng Youting lifted his head up, blew a cloud of smoke, threw the remaining cigarette to the ground, and smashed it repetitively with his leather shoes. The way he smashed it gave people an illusion that it was a thing hard to smash.

He was putting up with all his decisions. He had to fought with another him deep in his heart. He had no other choice but to turn all the bad things he had done to Lan into machetes, and using them to attack another him who was unwilling to accept the reality. At last, the Sheng Youting who could accept everything lived, though heavily injured.

Sheng Youting was silenced for quite a long time. He was not meant to act nice. However, he couldn’t forget his feelings when he went through Lan’s belongings when she fell asleep. His heart was like being sliced by thousands of knives at the same time.

Sheng Youting wore a faint smile and the bitterness in the smile could be told, “How would you think I would do the same things as what you’ve done? To defame me in her subconscious by taking advantage of the hypnosis in psychotherapy? To lead her to hate everything of me and then avoid me? Weren’t these things done to cut off every possible way for her to get back to my side instead of getting her cured?”

I wouldn’t do the same things.

I had seen her medical records in her suitcase. She had intermittent lunacy and couldn’t be simulated. I shouldn’t have robbed Qibao from her hands and stimulated her to mad.

Meng Shaoqian, I could leave you alone for her sake, could bear that she would always remember your goodness, could bear to treat the kid of your two as my own kid, and could even bear that she thought you are a thousand times better than me. However, it was my greatest concession! If you still wanted more, I would…” Sheng Youting stopped for a second and then continued word by word viciously, “Do! It! Once! For! All!”

Sheng Youting said in such a ferocious way that Meng Shaoqian didn’t even have a clue about how desperate he could be. The five words were enough to frighten him.

Meng Shaoqian dared not to bet against him. He feared to lose anything. He did love Yu Lan, but he had a family who loved him so much. Sheng Youting was such a maniac that God knew what would he do to the Meng family!