How To Survive as a Villain

Yan HeQing’s body had internal injuries. This time, when anger attacked his heart, his Qi and blood began to rise, and his chest cavity started to ache. He covered his mouth with one hand and coughed several times, until blood spilled from the corner of his mouth, but he simply reached out to wipe it away expressionless. Immediately afterwards, he saw Xiao YuAn take a step forward, grab his wrist and pull it away; only to see him coughing blood. His eyes suddenly narrowed: “You, you, why are you coughing up blood again?”

“I’m fine.” Yan HeQing didn’t care about his physical condition. Instead, he was eager to explain to Xiao YuAn: “Xiao YuAn…”

“Wait!” Xiao YuAn interrupted Yan HeQing, and then dragged him into his own wing room.

Xiao YuAn pushed Yan HeQing onto a chair, lit a candle and placed it on the table. He then sat down opposite Yan HeQing with great momentum: “Go ahead.”

Yan HeQing said: “I wasn’t the one that tried to harm you.”

Xiao YuAn thought about it and replied: “I believe you.”

Yan HeQing has never been the type of person that first says one thing and then says the opposite. If he hates someone, he will only think of how to cut them into pieces, so he doesn’t have the need to use deceitful justifications. It was meaningless.

Yan HeQing added: “I’ve never hated you.”

Xiao YuAn nodded: “The whole world is celebrating.”

Yan HeQing continued: “I’ve never wanted to hurt you either.”

Xiao YuAn touched his hand and said: “I’m moved to tears.”

The night breeze blows and the candle light flickers. After a brief silence, Xiao YuAn concluded: “It’s great that we could communicate!”

Yan HeQing, however, didn’t feel relaxed in the slightest. He stared at Xiao YuAn, as if he would disappear if he closed his eyes: “Xiao YuAn, you…. you don’t hate me?”

Xiao YuAn put one hand on his forehead, and as he gazed at the candlelight, he began to think.

He had never hated Yan HeQing, he only hated Heaven’s unwillingness to change his fate. If Hong Xiu hadn’t died, then Yang LiuAn would. If Li Wuding hadn’t died, Xie Chungui would. If the soldiers who burned down the granary hadn’t died, then more Northern soldiers and civilians would have fallen under the war. Xiao YuAn hated himself, for his incompetence, and his inability to defy fate; for not being able to change anything, even though he knew everything that would happen. For saying that he would be the Emperor of the Northern Kingdom, but in the end, he ended up being an outsider by Heaven’s will.

Yan HeQing seemed expressionless, but his fingers were slightly curled. In the meantime, Xiao YuAn moved his fingertips while his brows were frowning, then, he sighed and clenched his hands.

After that, he saw Xiao YuAn raise his head, smiling at him. This smile was unrestrained, which made Yan HeQing feel as if he could smell the fragrance of the wine they shared on the Yuhua Tower that day.

Xiao YuAn laughed and said: “If I hated you, then I would have buried you under the earth the moment I saw you on the mountain. Otherwise, why would I’ve bothered to save you?”

Yan HeQing looked at his wanton, unrestrained smile, and blurted out: “Xiao YuAn, I….”

“I know, I know.” Xiao YuAn patted Yan HeQing’s shoulder with a smile on his face: “Since the misunderstanding between us has been explained clearly, then we’ll continue to be good Xiongdi from now on!”

Yan HeQing’s words were blocked in his throat right away, and he repeated Xiao YuAn’s words extremely slowly: “Xiongdi?” After a pause, he nodded slowly: “Fine, I’m not in a hurry.”

Xiao YuAn didn’t hear his last words, so he took the opportunity to bathe in the Male Lead’s halo: “As Xiongdi we should take care of each other. So, if I’m being bullied you have to help me, alright? If you’re being bullied….”

‘Uhm, no one would dare to bully Yan HeQing right now.’

Yan HeQing very shallowly hooked the corner of his mouth: “Yes, I’ll take care of you.”

Xiao YuAn nodded repeatedly: “Yes, yes, yes. Take care of me.”

Yan HeQing stared at Xiao YuAn and added: “Xiao YuAn, I’ll ask for the last time. Do you seriously not hate me?”

Xiao YuAn replied with a smile: “I don’t hate you. I never hated you before, and there’s no possibility of me hating you in the future.”

Yan HeQing raised his eyebrows: “If you say so, then after this…. I won’t…. be polite.”

Xiao YuAn replied: “Why would you be polite?! We’re Xiongdi, there’s nothing to be polite about!”

Yan HeQing gently licked the corners of his mouth, there was still a trace of the sweet taste of iron left behind from when he had coughed up blood before. After that, he dragged his words long enough for Xiao YuAn to hear them clearly, and keep them in mind: “Alright, that’s what you said.”

It was like letting go of a long-standing worry from inside his heart. Xiao YuAn then stretched his back and threw himself onto his bed. He took a long, deep breath, then pointed to the bed closest to the door and said: “If you don’t mind, you can sleep here tonight. I’m still not cured from my disease, so I can’t sleep without anyone around me. I’ll ask my Shifu to check your pulse in the morning, to see if there’s any good prescription to heal your body. Alright, let’s go to sleep. If we stay up too late, we’ll suffer from a sudden death, or get bald!”

Yan HeQing gave a soft hmmm, and then blew out the candlelight. In the dark, he gently licked the corner of his mouth once again.

YHQ just got brozoned xDDD But worry not, he’s not an impatient man, and will get his hubby sooner or later (つω`*)

Also, from now on XYA will call YHQ “Yan-ge” all the time and it’s so freaking cute I can’t even _(:3 」∠)_❤